Before She Loses Her Mind

I haven’t been able to post on my blog for a long time now. Honestly, I really have no idea what to write about lately. This blog is meant to be a place where I can pour my thoughts into through whatever means, be it poetry or whatnot. But the thing is, I don’t really have much thoughts lately.

No. Scratch that.

I do have a lot of thoughts going on inside my head. Too many that I don’t know what to pull out first and pour on this blog.

I want to share my experience being stuck here in my dorm for almost four months now because of the quarantine. I want to share how I have been too used to a literal silent night for how many months. And now that we’re slowly loosening the restrictions, it has been giving me anxiety when I suddenly hear people talking late at night.

I want to tell my friends that for the first time, I want to go home to my hometown. For the first time, I mind being left alone at this dorm. For the first time, I want to tell my mom that I’m scared of being alone.

I know that something has changed. And before I lose my mind from all these Korean dramas and American TV series that I’ve been binge-watching just to get myself distracted from the anxiety attacking me, I decided to get it together and share life updates on this blog even if no one reads it. It’s for myself. To keep my sanity amidst this pandemic.

But just in case someone is reading this… I hope you are well. We’ll get through this.

love,
Z